Internal debate; or Yes, I say 'forseriously' when I'm arguing with myself, but not in my research papers.

I can hardly wait until the day I graduate! I'll have a degree! I won't have to write on subjects I'm not interested in anymore. I'll have time to do other writing, blogging even. I can sing more. I'll be able to start more swiftly conquering the stack of books I have waiting to be read. I'll also have more time to chip away at and eventually finish all of the various projects I've started and have currently pushed to a corner, incomplete. And maybe I'll actually keep my surroundings more clean. It'll be great.

I'm graduating in 9 1/2 weeks?! What am I going to do with myself? I don't know what it's like to not have deadlines! It's been a long time since I've functioned without someone looming over me, glaring at me to do something I don't want to do or else. I'm going to have to get a job! I won't be able to play at this adult stuff anymore.

I'm graduating in 9 1/2 weeks! I'm always pushing myself so hard to accomplish something, and this is a something that's really huge (!) and therefore brings with it extra incentive to celebrate. Lots of people may clean the whole house in a single (at least I think they do?), but it's not every day that someone graduates from a university.

Forseriously, what in the world am I going to do? Really, in almost 23 years, what have I done with my life? What skills do I have? I've gone to school, done a fair job of mastering domestic duties, taken care of children, learned the ins and outs of summer camp, and perfected the performance of "I Love to Laugh" from Disney's Mary Poppins. Anybody want to hire me?

I'll finally be able to get away from the MTSU campus every day!.....okay, that may seem to you to be a statement made in earnest, but I can't honestly say that with any conviction. I needed another positive to keep with the pattern, but this is the one thing that I'm going to like least. I like going to MTSU every day. I started my life as an undergraduate student there in August 2006, and before that my actual physical abode was there in the years when I was 8 and 9. It's become one of my homes. I have a few of them scattered around the place, and I'm happy to say that my school has been added to the list. Certain things about my life as a student can be frustrating, but simply being in those surroundings is not one of them.

Life is an adventure! I don't know what's going to happen. At least not immediately. I have a vague idea of how I'm going to spend the first couple of months after walking across the stage in my cap and gown (parties, weddings, road trips, and camp, oh my!), but all after that is a mystery. And that's okay. It's likely more than okay, and possibly even best. If I knew too much, I'd be tempted to micro manage. I think much of my childhood was an attempt for God to teach me to not micro manage.

The day is approaching rapidly. Stay tuned with me! I daresay I'm much more eager to see what happens than anyone else is, but I'd like to share the experience with at least one person. I also think that much of my childhood was an attempt for God to teach me the value of living life with people, along with the detriments of being alone too much. That's a subject for another day, though. Suffice to say, I think I've learned my lesson in that regard (I hope), so I don't intend to go on this or any adventure alone.